Why is it that Crissy and Jawan and others blog so much and I rarely take the time to post?

I could say that I'm busy, but I need to save that cop-out for something bigger. I could say that I have nothing to post about, but who would want to admit to such a shallow existence. I could say that I'm too lazy, but that would be a little too true for the World Wide Web. Maybe I'm stuck in a space-time continuum and tomorrow is the same as yesterday which only has meaning if there is a day after tomorrow. Maybe I've watched too much Star Trek.

The truth is that I am stuck, not in a space time continuum, but in a I-have-to-say-something-meaningful-because-I'm-a-pastor, place. Really the burden to be profound is profound.

Why is it that I can't just sit down and tell all the wonderful things that I see God doing in my life. The truth is that most of those things would require an admission of weakness on my part and the expectation from the religious is that the Pastor is strong, not weak. I am the religious, you know, those who measure spirituality in terms of success in keeping the law. What a delusion.

In addition, as I just illustrated, I am not a very good writer, and that makes me looks bad too. I'll probably not post much, I don't like looking bad, but maybe God will be gracious and remind me that Christ died for narcissistic, egomaniac, has-anybody-seen-my-piety, people like me and allow me to be honest with myself about my sin and maybe tell the blogging world about being the beloved of God more often.